Deep musings...

Yesterday, I was talking to my mom on the phone, as I do everyday... :P Usually, the way our conversation goes is: what I did for the day, which is pretty much the same almost every other day; if I talked to my brother or any of my uncles; what they did; what they had for breakfast (lol ... what else do you expect if you speak everyday! And unlike in the US, breakfast is an important part of the day back home); and if any new things happened - relatives, friends and stuff. Well, she made a comment about me not speaking much, that I'm not being all happy and interested, like I used to be when I was back in school! Hehe... what can I say, maybe it is true, maybe it is not! I guess I was tired out after I went back home from work and gym (lol... I started gymming again a week back! It's damn tiring till I get used to it again... )

Have I changed? Yes, I am sure I have... As someone said, "CHANGE is the only CONSTANT thing in life." Is it for the good? I don't know... it depends on the perspective. Do I think a lot? I guess I do, maybe I should not... most of my time is spent either on the phone, or on the computer... maybe some time with my roomie watching movies! Other than that, the few other people I meet are at work; I do not know why but I am not too close to most people at work... maybe it is because I have not tried to, or maybe they have not tried to... not that I am a difficult person to talk to... on the contrary, most of my friends would testify otherwise! I do meet some people when I am at the malls and stuff... well they are the random people, who have their own lives, just a "hello, how are you doing" sort of stuff... but interesting conversations sometimes!

I wonder if I would have become the way I am, if I was back home the whole time... no way! Or if I was still in school... again the answer is pretty obvious... no way! Am I happy with the way life is leading me? I guess I'm okay with it... not all gay and joyous... but not sad and melancholic either! In fact, sometimes I think that life is just dragging me along and I'm in this huge wave that's just leading me and I'm okay with wherever it is taking me! I just have this vague feeling of elation and dysphoria at the same time...

On a happy note, as always, being the eternal optimist that I am (or I think I am... lol), "whatever happens is for the best!", though I maybe just "okay" with things... :)