No blogging for looong - time for another one!!!

Life's been changing... I just remembered these verses of a poem I had read when I was a kid:

"Baduku jataka bandi, vidhi adara sahebha
kudure nee, avanu peldanthe payanigaru,
maduvego, masanako hogenda,
kadegodu, padakusiye nelavihudu mankutimma…"

A great poet in Kannada wrote these verses... and here is the translation: "Life is akin to a horse cart whose driver is none other than destiny; man is the horse who will go wherever he is directed to go unquestioningly." When I was in my eighth grade, I had to learn the poem by heart and write essays about it! I was too young and naive to understand the depths of the poem. And how true it is in our lives...

I have been having this vague feeling that I am totally out of control of my life, it is being played out for me and I am just being led on to wherever it is taking me. I am no longer sure of stuff in life. I used to be this ever-confident, ever-optimistic guy... not that I am not all of that now... but I have taken a step back and looking at life from another person's eyes, maybe... or maybe I am just living in phases, where I am changing constantly from one phase to the next...

Sometimes I feel life is all interesting and cheery, sometimes I feel it is so boring and sad! Sometimes I miss home and friends a lot, sometimes I do not even feel like calling up home or talking to anyone... Sometimes I wish I was a kid going to school without any worries, sometimes I wish I just have to go off somewhere all alone and stay there forever! haha... too weird thoughts for me...

I read the last couple of my blogs and I felt that I have been writing some really weird things... I don't know why... :) Anyways, it's a way of getting things out of the system or thinking out loud, maybe! Anyways, it feels good to write; I had the sudden urge to write now, sudden inspiration if I may so (though I don't think people write such s**t from inspiration... hahahaha)! And so, here pops up a blog!